D, im really sorry about just now. its just that i wanna talk to you. and i being understanding guy. but its just take time for me to pick up the speed. trust me D that one day i will completely change. saying word is not enough as i have to prove it. Deep inside me i just feel very alone and abit lost. because im sad that i not in good term with my first sister. and i have no one to talk to when come to my family. all of them busy with their life and forget about me. it just that i feel that im invisible to them. i know i have to face all this and be strong in life. if im not strong how i want to take care of you D. it just that about feeling inside me. i want my family to be in talking term with me. sometime i feel jealous that my friend having a happy family and stuff. D, please dont make me upset by hang the phone on me again. maybe to you i talk nonsense but dont hang the phone D. i will do my best not to make you angry or sad. i keep to my pact. once again that im sorry for my mistake. D, i really love you so much.. i even dont know how to say in words anymore that i love you.. it just the feeling inside me can't get enough of you and i feel free like a bird when im with you D. i never hide in the dark anymore. you change me alot D. i never forget that. you make a huge impact in my life. no one ever done that D. you are the first to do. and to be honest to you that im happy with the way i am now. it just one more thing i need to do in life which is to change my mindset. time to wake myself up, im turning to become a men. no more child play or teens life. D, you are everything to me.. i swear it true.'bow down' love love love you Dearie....

love Aidil.