Thursday, June 12, 2008 11:12 PM
WHY AIDIL WHY..!
what wrong with me..
What wrong with me.. why im acting like this? i sometime dont know what wrong with me cause sometime im okay and sometime not. i kept asking to myself why. i always say this and that about change and stuff but it seem that nothing is done. and always upset my D. come on Aidil.. i have to wake up my idea and stop acting like childish. F*** F*** S*** F***.
Today was bad day for us. because i start a fight with D. it all begin with my attitude when our friends around. it just that when they around us, i act so macho and ego to the max toward D. and the way i talk to D was all wrong. im being somebody else.. im not myself when they around. when they not around i back to normal self. that really bad of me. than the second thing is that my D just told me about school and she abit lost at school. she just want me to say everything is okay. cause she dont understand about JAVA. but than i went to talk about that she to engross to the internet.i should think before i say. but i know that she's not like that. and lastly is that i took her time alot and cause her to went home late. due to my nagging and stuff. haizz... wha the matter with me??? 3 thing happen in just one day..
No Turning Back Aidil...
D, i know i always hurt you feeling and hurt you by using force. and even make you upset almost everyday. sometime i dont know why i act this way D. i can see all of our fight begin with me, im the starter. but most of the time i dont relize.. now it the time for me to wake up and look positively. stop all my nonsense and do what is right. mark my word from this day. D, i just need you to trust me that i will change. no turning back to my bad habit. i'll prove you. D, im really sorry for the mistake i have done since day 1 with you. i never mean to hurt you d. and im sorry about just now incident. that was bad side of me, that never gonna happen again. i should be more understanding and should know how you feel when at school and home. i know you have alot of thing to do D. i know you always being honest toward me and always tell me thing even a small thing. and i know that you sincere with me. and i know that no way you gonna play me out. cause deep inside you i know you love me alot and i promise not to leave you. "D, this is my promise to you that i will be a real man and change for the better. cause i know our relationship is very important. and nothing gonna stop us. loving you forever. lets begin a new chapter of our love. . .
'Dont love someone for their look,
Dont fall for someone cause of their sweet words.
And dont like someone because of their promises...
But love the someone for who they are and of their honesty and sincerely being with you always...'
Lots Of Love... Aidil.
