Monday, August 18, 2008 11:22 AM
-Trashed and crashed-
its beats me too why im feeling low beat.
im feelings are just so @%#$!!@ up right now.everyone is telling me to calm down and take a breather
but they are not facing the shit that im facing.i want to disappear and just be free. hate being caged up.
hate protecting my love ones and scaring myself from misery.hate insincere helping hands. backstabbers. liars!.
hate pretending to be cheerful.
hate sleepless nights. -Abhore?!-
to my dad, we all at home dun need you so just buzz off.
we know your dirty little secret. don't be oblivious to your disgusting actions.im ashamed of you and always have.im tired of suppressing my feelings.
sometimes i do feel im taken for granted.
I HATE U.
you prove us only one thing and that is you are not cut off to be a good dad.
never will. your stories are all pure lies.the family is falling apart and rayray and i are the ones that have to fix the broken pieces up.
we mend it and you break it up time after time.IM TIRED.how can u tear mama's heart up endlessly?just leave her alone.
i can look after her myself.
to all the other shitheads that are making me feel like shit,
i don't want to talk to you either. cos you are just a big mess and all those big talking make realize how extra dumb you are.-Daydream-
B+rayray + mama+rak
i heart you all.
lets have a party of our own.
