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Sunday, November 16, 2008 7:31 PM



Spiralling and tumbling

Time is the a factor that i hate the most

time shortens the time u are left with the person you love most

time causes us to change and the thought of it scares me

cause the outcome will never go as planned
why can't we lead a picture prefect life?

where tears do not roll and hearts do not beat solely

i never thoughAlign Leftt i would be in a state of crying for a man

is this what love means?

crying in the dark and sore eyes are obtained as an aftermath?

fearing of being betrayed?

seeing my mum enduring the pain to restore the love she once believed in

made me swore to myself that i would not follow the life she led

but fate rewrote my pledge and time made me enjoy the sweetness of love

showing me the joyfulness of being in love

but my fairy tale lasted for only a moment

it takes 2 hands to clap and resolve things and make things right

i really want to i really do!
but will fate and time permit me to amend thing?

but how can i forsee if he still really loves and cares for me

and wants this relationship to blossom?

when he does not see me eye-to-eye and plant kisses passionately anymore?

when privacy is what he wants?

when he is okay not talking to me for days?

when he does things that he swore to never do again?

when he finds my crying annoying?

when he finds being with me a bore?

when he does not join me in build future stories?
when he treats me like a casual friend?

when all i see in his eyes are pitiness for me?

am i being a paranoid?

am i sounding like a totally desperate lover?

love is not forceful

i cannot be selfish to him and myself

i still love him 100 percent
i still dream and daydream for him

i still pray for his safety

i still awaits for his calls
i still worry for his safety when he is outside in the night

but my allowance of time to enjoy those percious moments is short
i dunno what the future holds for me

but whatever the scenario it is

i just wanna say to B that

i won't stop loving him

i won't give up on what we have built even if my time with you is shortened

(cos fate will start playing bad games with us)

im willing to treasure all the moments i have with you starting of today
im sorry

-deadsoul-



dear diary.




What if you took a nap and during that nap,
You dreamt!
And what if In your dream,
You went up to heaven!
While you were there, You plucked a strange and beautiful flower. And What if you woke up and found that you had that flower in you hand?
Ah, what then?



I need you.


“need some gifts?”
“yes!”


without a single word.


Just a small town girl living in big dreams and hopes

went away.


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