i dunnoe what i have to do to make people realise what i want

im swallowing far too much

taking the back seat

flying with the wind

like the bloody kite

sigh

i've decided to go for my graduation after all

i need to get my hair coloured SOFT HAZEL BROWN!

hmm.

why have i decided to go??

cause this could be my last time wearing a CAPE ?

my mama is going to cry and my papa is going to kiss my head

very mushy i know

but HEY

parents will be parents

i did this for them

mama your investment in me paid off huh?

giggles

okay cut the boastfulness

but yeah

i mean

i deserve to enjoy myself and give myself this treat

i worked my ass off in my last year

it has been a month since shit happened to mehow am i doing??

wellies, its NUMB NUMB

i wanna cry but it feels like im laughing

its a worried scene i tell you

i wanna feel sorry for him but i end up feeling sorry for myself

if everything was alright, tomorrow would mark our 17 mth together

i doubt he even cares

cause he has probably seeked for his HAPPINESS

elsewhere

good for him

i wish him best of luck

am i doing the same?

seeking happiness?

im trying

not in terms of love of course

i dun trust men anymorei never did actually

giggles

hmm

life is short

OH BOY!!

im meeting LALA tmr.

woot!!

my malay has improved alott

hanks to my student, Ilhan

"LALA, esok erika belanja ice-cream..lepas kita pergi shopping beli cermin mata ya?? BEST NYE!!"

im so going to cam-whore tmr

.oh oh oh oh oh oh

RAK!!

I hate youyou got the phone that im longing for lanow i stare at you using it

BLAH LA.

MESSAGE FOR THE HEARTBROKEN LOVE ONES OF MINE
seeing you in my stage, makes me wanna cry and give you all the huggies i could give..but i must give credits to all of you for being stronger than i ever was..i dunnoe why men of today are heartless or insensitive to us..it feels like a joke sometimes..a mean joke..what can we do?? i guess we could just lay back and close our eyes and take this as fate or a test from god. The great one will lead us thru everything if we believe in him that this path or choice he wrote for us will make us a better person.

PAUL TWOHILL AND KAYKAY
i never likes him but i must say he is one funny kiddo.

enjoy the video

even my bro laughed at it