Tuesday, May 12, 2009 11:39 PM
IM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED!
IM SICK OF BEING LIED TO AND HAVING PEOPLE TELLING ME HOW TO FEEL
IF I AM NOT STRONG, I WOULD NOT HOLD BACK MY TEARS AND SMILE FROM EAR
TO EAR IN FRONT OF EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU!!!!
IM NOT SATISFIED WITH ALL THE SHIT THAT HAS BEEN SMACKED ON ME
I DO NOT WANT MY FATE TO BE WRITTEN LIKE THIS
I HAVE BEEN PAITENT
FAR TOO PAITENT
I QUIT ALL THESE SACRIFIES I HAVE DONE
SHAKE THEM OFF ME
PLEASE SOMEONE?
IM GOING BONKERS
MESSAGE TO CK
Hey lady, im sry i was not there when you are in a deep pit
i hope you are alright
what you said to me in the SMS is still lingering in my head
i wish life had been abit fairer to me
i've been in many obstacles in my life
BUT
this would have to be the hardest one
i have to face
sometimes, i just wanna pack and leave
go so far
and start over
too many things are holding me back
CAGED up
thats how i feel inside
im being a hypocrite to myself
is this what i really want?
i am giving up
i still feel like im dreaming
nothing seems real anymore
i hate this SHIT!
FLASHY UPDATE
For those who knows me well enough,
you would know that once
Lulu sets her mind on a goal,
she never fails to gasp it
so
here is what i have planned out for myself
i will achieve it
cause my gut feeling tell me so
Lulu, wanna adopt a kiddo
im not lying here
If my fate with Love JUST SUCKS
im not seeking for it anymore
i wanna pour out my attention to loving the less fortunate kids
i always have a thing for orphange kids actually
i do not want any boy to toy with my love
its not worth it
i rather do something wiser and meaningful in my life
i want to do something for at least 1 kid there
i will adopt 1 and shower him with my love
show him that
there is a good life out there for him
and someone loves him
THIS IS NOT A WISHFUL THINKING
I MEAN IT!!
heck what shit people wanna say
this is my life
get it?
my Lady Boss has decided to increase my pay to another $1000/-
if i do extra tuition lessons after work hours
YOU KNOW WHAT??
im taking it and i will save up
gimme 2 years
to get myself stabilize
and
i wanna try this Parenthood thingy
its not a game
I've been a Parent to all my siblings
with more guidance from my mama,
im sure i can do it
FEAR NOTHING
:)
