Monday, August 24, 2009 10:17 PM
fooling myself again i was reading my old entries and every single entries have brought tears to stream down my cheeks. i know i know PAST IS THE PAST.. got that already! i do not want to lie myself and be pretentious about forgetting him. i did try. MY HARDEST but it always comes back to him. I am so sorry if i have broke some hearts along the way while mending this heart of mine. i got your hearts broken instead. stupid of me to ever think i will ever have my chance with him again. The chances aren't mine anymore. Kept questioning myself if it was always just a "game" for him. Im so tired of thinking my ending will have a "PRINCESS-LIKED" fairytale ending. Wake Up! i know he is happy now with his new life. im not afraid to say that i still love him but he is not mine to keep. he deserves to be happy. I KNOW that implies to me too. those great memories will be locked safe in my heart. UPDATES ABT MY LIFE : nothing new! really. just earning more cash and working my ass off. gonna get my omnia II soonie so i can't wait. can't wait to get my coloured contacts. teachers' day is approaching!! AH i so wanna hug and kiss my sebastien on the cheek and tell him 'TEACHER SHASHA' loves him lots! im thinking of colouring my hair blue. YAH! we'll see..damn my hair is damage from the red colourings.anyway, ahh im having a major mood swing. hate it! gtg.
fooling myself again i was reading my old entries and every single entries have brought tears to stream down my cheeks. i know i know PAST IS THE PAST.. got that already! i do not want to lie myself and be pretentious about forgetting him. i did try. MY HARDEST but it always comes back to him. I am so sorry if i have broke some hearts along the way while mending this heart of mine. i got your hearts broken instead. stupid of me to ever think i will ever have my chance with him again. The chances aren't mine anymore. Kept questioning myself if it was always just a "game" for him. Im so tired of thinking my ending will have a "PRINCESS-LIKED" fairytale ending. Wake Up! i know he is happy now with his new life. im not afraid to say that i still love him but he is not mine to keep. he deserves to be happy. I KNOW that implies to me too. those great memories will be locked safe in my heart. UPDATES ABT MY LIFE : nothing new! really. just earning more cash and working my ass off. gonna get my omnia II soonie so i can't wait. can't wait to get my coloured contacts. teachers' day is approaching!! AH i so wanna hug and kiss my sebastien on the cheek and tell him 'TEACHER SHASHA' loves him lots! im thinking of colouring my hair blue. YAH! we'll see..damn my hair is damage from the red colourings.